I'm feeling slightly nostalgic and just looked through my posts from Feb 2010 and found this little gem..

X is a funny creature..

We met a while ago and had our first date a few months ago. He's not the most good looking guy you'll ever come across, but he's not ginger... which is a start. The main thing that drew me to him was that he made me laugh, and feel completely comfortable around him. We carried on seeing each other for quite a while, he introduced me to his friends, we saw each other a lot... and then suddenly he tells me we should just be friends - because he doesn't want a girlfriend.
I'd never even mentioned that I might want to be his girlfriend.. (the fact that the thought crossed my mind with alarming frequency is completely irrelevant... he's not a mind reader) so I thought that was that. He's just not that into me. We'll be friends.

Apparently by friends what he meant was 'lets carry on doing exactly what we are now without any of the responsibility to one another'. I'm not cool with that.

But still he hasn't quite disappeared yet.. I still find myself waking up next to him fairly frequently and wondering what the hell I'm doing with a guy who doesn't want any form of relationship with me.

We started being 'friends' in January - and this morning - a WHOLE MONTH later, I did the walk of shame back from his house to mine.. along with a torrent of verbal punishment from my sister down the phone. Think he's a habit I need to break.

nwis x

Nearly a year on and STILL in the same situation.. is the universe trying to tell me something or is it just my inability to stay strong?!