With Valentine's Day 2011 fast approaching I found myself trawling through my blog posts to see how I was feeling this time last year.. and I have to admit I am slightly disappointed in myself for still being in EXACTLY the same situation..

It was Valentine's Day yesterday.. have to say, as a single person it's not my favourite time of year - but this one went quite well. Granted I had no cards, flowers or romantic gestures - but I did have a relatively nice day with my family. Spend it with those you love I thought.

I kind of hoped X might have picked up on the HUGE hints that I'd dropped, I mean they weren't exactly subtle.. I even said on Saturday 'what are you going to write in my Valentine's Card' - so it was fairly obvious I was looking for one. Good job I didn't hold my breath. Not so much as a happy valentine's text from him. All I got was a phone call at 10pm asking if I wanted to 'go over'.... No thank you..

And still when I told him I have a date this week he had the nerve to be jealous... I don't understand men.. 'I don't want you but I don't want you to want anyone else' just makes no sense!

I know I should get rid of him and move on.. but I'm strangely hooked. Almost like I'm waiting to see what weird thing he does next.

It's clear to me a year on that X is a law unto himself and despite my stand offish behaviour, cruelty and attempts at being strong he just won't go away..

That's not to say he doesn't have his uses.. I had a flat tyre at the weekend and he came to the rescue.. strange to see the small glimpses of a caring guy in there - quite off putting. Wonder if I'll get a card this year.. any bets?

NWIS x

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