I know it's only the end of October - but already I feel I'm in the grips of Christmas.. this may be something to do with the fact that I've been working on Christmas since August. Plymouth Winter Festival will be in full swing soon and I am super excited for the Christmas Ice Rink... and a little bit giddy about Lemar switching on the Christmas Lights! Very exciting!

Christmas does leave me feeling a little nostalgic though..and with it I made a bit of a school girl error last night and gave in to X... I went to his house...

I am filled with shame but I enjoyed seeing him - he made me laugh and he was sweet and I can be myself around him... the fact that he's an arrogant, egotistical commitmentphobe is a slight down point I admit - but he serves a purpose. He's there when I need him to be and provides me with an escape when I need one - without any of the expectations or pressure that I'd have from anyone else.

I think I have to admit he's just my guilty pleasure.. after all of my strong words about never seeing him again I always end up going back..

nwis! x